1. My car is brand new based on the lengthy list of repairs it had done this past week.
2. My mother refuses to drive her car after her fall, black out incident and her frequent body and head aches.
3. My personal day for Friday did not go through because transportation issues are not considered a valid reason for a personal day, even though my job requires me to have transportation.
4. I have to move again. But I plan to move in with my sister at least for one year…until graduate school is done with.
5. I hate the commute to work. Hate it.
6. I hate not knowing what to get him for Valentine’s Day. He is such a difficult person to get a gift for.
7. My niece had her baby this past Sunday.
8. My other niece is studying to become a massage therapist.
9. One of my professors can’t teach.
10. October 6, 2012. Yay! <3

I now hate Laura. Because of her actions, I have to live with a constantly depressed roommate that will twist everything I say just to make herself cry. Allow me to explain. Last Friday, my roommate, some of her friends and I went out. My roommate drank herself to a stupor, which is fine as I was the designated driver. She was not sure whether or not she embarrassed herself in front of this guy that she likes. I told her to tone down certain things that she constantly does and she should be fine. She then spoke to her friend Laura who informed her that she was a bit embarrassing and that the guy she likes does not even like her.

This is annoying to me. Everyone else in my roommate’s circle of friends believes that he may have at least a crush on her. However, because this one person said otherwise, my roommate rather believes this one person than what everyone else is observing. She is now depressed, thinking she will always be alone and miserable and no one will ever love her. This morning, I tried to cheer her up and to say what I think of the situation, her line of defense was “you don’t understand because you always had a boyfriend…” She rather assume that I will never understand her struggles than to hear me out. I tried explaining to her that her cries sound more like she wants to pick on one aspect of her identity and use it as a justification for her not having a boyfriend. She makes it sound like this one aspect will always make guys not want her. Guys do not know about this aspect unless she opens her mouth and tells them. This aspect, mind you, is also temporary and she will fix it to match her true sense of self.

Right now, I can’t talk to her about her troubles with men or with this particular situation because she always ends up crying and victimizing herself as well as saying that I do not understand. Everything I say, she twists around to make herself even more depressed, feel more isolated, and more alone.

Right now, I hate Laura. She does not live with my roommate so she does not know what I go through. This girl does not have any proof of what she told my roommate and should have not said anything sounding so concrete. I have an idea of what this guy thinks about my roommate, but it is not my place to say or do anything as this is all still something new to her.  Laura decided not to.  I understand being honest with a person, but my roommate is the type of person that will easily follow a pessimistic path rather than a positive one.  Ugh.  Okay, maybe not hate since it is a strong word, possibly strongly dislike right now. Still.